Finding Direction: The Wind Vane Chronicles

I started my new medication yesterday and started tapering off the one I'm already on for depression that wasn't helping.  I don't know how long it will take for the medication to begin to take effect, but I hope soon.  I hope that I will not only be able to tolerate it, but that it will work well for me.

If not, then I'll be talking with the doctors about changing it out again.  The one I've been taking for months is one that's been around a good while, but is not effective for all of the chemical imbalances I have in my brain.  The new one is supposed to be, so we'll see.

I'm trying to be as optimistic as I can in the midst of the darkness here and seem to be in a bit better spirits today as a result of getting things started for the better.  I'm trying to begin to climb out of the black hole I've been in with God's help (I've certainly been praying a lot) and your help, with your words of comfort and your prayers, and with medical help.

Tom has been a great comforter, too, and is loving me as never before through all of this.  We've been talking a lot together and he is helping me in every way he can by relieving some of the stresses in my life.

You would think there wouldn't be any, but that's not true.  I don't have time right now, but I might write about some of those later, if you'd care to hear them.  

The reasons I am writing about all of this is that it helps me to see where I am in the scheme of things and I also would like to encourage any of you who have ever suffered from serious depression or how are in one now (or think that you are susceptible to them) by sharing what I'm doing in my struggles.

 Thank y'all for all of the warm comments, emails and prayers and even gifts some of you are sending.  You have warmed my heart and certainly have been in my thoughts as I have tried to get a grip on things the past couple of days.

Like I said the other day, I'm working on gearing up the Third Annual Winter Desktop Photo Contest and hope all y'all will join in the fun of submitting winter photos and sending in much coveted bribes!  The last two contests I held brought offers of a free tatoo (I declined, in case you're wondering what my views are on tatooes) and the chance to have a role in a novel Patrick Mead is writing. 

While I declined the offer of a tatoo, Patrick did fashion a delightful  (of course) character in his current novel named "Delilah" Andrews, who is an astute attorney of some age and dignity.  It was based on me, I'm positive, which made my day for sure, even in the depression.

I mean, it's not every day a girl gets to star, even briefly, in a well written and exciting fiction novel, you know.   

That's it for now.  It's 11:30 a.m. and I'm just now drinking my morning coffee, so I need to get myself together before Tom comes home at noon.  All I can say is it's a good thing he comes home every day at lunch or else I probably would have done a lot worse the past few months about sleeping nearly all the time and isolating myself as much as possible.

Y'all have a good day, today, hear?!

Cheers & Blessings to you all today!  And, keep me in your prayers.  Please!  Dee

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